A Baby on the Way

I have several rooms in my home that I have allowed to become completely disorganized and cluttered. One particular room is so bad, I can’t even use it for what it was meant to be — an art studio. It has become a hold-all of “stuff”. I keep telling myself that I will eventually use this “stuff” in my art . . . but I don’t, and I can’t because there’s no room to create art.

Over the past couple of weeks, I have randomly drawn cards from divination decks. I’ve purchased a few lately all with different themes — images in nature, crystals, and guides. Because all of the cards are new, the image I see is new. It has no past interpretation to guide me. I have to go with my gut feeling, which is the ultimate purpose of these decks. It’s the gut reaction that is the truest.

Two days in a row, I pulled the same card from two different decks. By “the same,” I mean that they had the same word — Family — though both had different imagery. Also, on different days, I’ve pulled the same card again — this time the cards were about new birth, pregnancy, motherhood. This is all very odd to me because even if I was of the age where pregnancy was likely, I’m not in a relationship where that is possible. So, this idea of pregnancy has to be figurative and may, or may not, have anything to do with the Family card.

I chose a card before I went to bed and it said “Blindness”. This card had come up in the same deck two days ago. It sounds like I’ve been choosing cards every hour, but I haven’t. I’ve only chosen 4 cards from this particular deck over the past 2 weeks. So I think it is quite odd that I chose the same card again. So I began to think about what I’m blind to. I have blinded myself to the clutter in my home. I couldn’t bare to be here if I really saw everything that surrounds me. I decided last night that I would start with the art studio. It’s the most unusable room and the room I want to use the most.

This morning I had an inspiration (Thank you, Guides). This pregancy — could it be that I am getting ready to create something inspiring? I was given the image of the art studio as the baby’s room. Just as parents have to change a room of their home to a room for their yet to be born child, it’s time for me to get my art studio ready for my yet to be born burst of creativity.

This week, my focus will be on preparing for the coming of child within. I don’t know what the child will look like yet, but I know it will be loved. And I know it will need a safe place within my home. I won’t be truly ready for its arrival until the room is ready.